I had a tempo run to do today which is a challenge with my tendonitis at its worst.

It was a bit like torture today, not only was there a bitter wind and I knew I was going have to run at a slightly faster pace but my sleep has been so bad with the pain in my shoulder.

About 2 or 3km into my run today I really was starting to question what I am doing. I am putting my body under such stress and it is starting to fight me at every stage. Do I really want to run a marathon?

I have absolutely no idea why I signed up to do this. I seemed like such a good idea but I really did not factor in how demanding the training would be.

I know I am being a bit miserable at the moment but I’m only getting about 5 hours sleep a night and that is broken by the pain so it is just becoming a bit of a slog.

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The other irritating thing is my new trainers. I bought 2 pairs of Adidas Boost at the Meet the Experts day and I wish I hadn’t, they are too narrow. I did think they would give but I was wrong and now I am getting bruises.

So I spent about 2 hours researching Nike trainers today and have ordered myself some Air Zoom Pegasus 32 with wide fit and can wait for them to arrive. I ordered 2 pairs and one of them I got customised with my name on the tongues and in the Samaritans colours!

As a plus point, the pain in my shoulder while running was not as bad today as it has been.

Then I did my yoga after my run, my energy levels were so low I kept it very low impact and focused more on stretching. I practised for about 35 minutes today just to work in the most vital areas.

I have also added in some specific stretches and stability work for my shoulders to try and correct the problems that are causing my tendonitis. The problem with it is that I have had the wrong alignment in my shoulders for so long that I am prepared for this to be a long road back.

My eating for today was the following:

Pre-Breakfast Snack - Corn Cake & Peanut Butter

I had one of these after my run and added in a couple of pitted dates to boost my carb intake.

Breakfast - Blackberry Muffin Oatmeal

This is the same as the blueberry version but this time using blackberries that my uncle picked at the side of the road and I took out of my freezer this morning. I was a bit naughty and added in some maple syrup at the end too.

Lunch - Leftovers & Salad

I had a small amount of dinner leftover from last night so I warmed that up and made a lovely fresh salad to go with it.

Dinner - Spaghetti Bolognese

This is one of my favourites and I made it today with some mushrooms and olives added to the sauce. I always try and make sure I have a large sauce as I am not a fan of eating too many carbs in one go. I had about 90g of pasta and then a large amount of sauce full of yummy vegan mince.

After Dinner Snack - Banana Bread

I was feeling a bit exhausted this afternoon and cooking always makes me feel better so I made some banana bread this afternoon. I used this recipe from Cookie & Kate but made a few adjustment. I used spelt flour and changed the eggs for 2 tbs ground flaxseed mixed with 6 tbs cold water. If you leave this mixture for about 10 minutes you will get an egg like substance.

Plus I added in some chopped pecans and had a slice after dinner just to treat myself!

In the evening I felt a bit like I was crawling up to bed and had to be really dedicated to stick to my yoga and meditation practice before bed.

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